so the idea for this is kind of like a new start for me to put random thoughts and all that jazz onto internet "paper". i've not had a lot of luck in keeping any kind of a coherent sort of thing like this in the past so we'll see how it goes.
my life as of late has been pretty stressful. my car broke down one morning when i was going to leave for work, and that's what started it all. i had to miss work that morning, which i feel terrible about that happening because it inconvenienced everyone i like at my job. so that day i get my car to a repair shop that i've never been to, and my mom takes me back home where we wait...all day...to hear about the repairs needed to make my car work again. they call eventually and it's going to cost me over 1000$ in the cheapest of scenarios. [serpentine belt, a/c, water pump, starter replacement] ohhhhh great. so with that, i'm sitting here with no running car, and a need to drive 70+ miles roundtrip to my job everyday. it ends up we don't go with the repair guy and my family tow my car [illegally, mind you] to their house to work on it. that is going to take a while because everyone has jobs of their own.
so because i still have to work everyday, i have to get a rental car for what i thought was to be 4 days. go to the place and they give me a super cute nissan sentra. i drive this to the death cab for cutie concert in cleveland [where i am super scared it is going to get run into or stolen altogether. everything with that went ok, and i started my search for a new car. i can't stand the idea of driving my old car everyday while i am scared to death that it's not even going to start. this is taking forever because i can't find anything that i want that is in my [really low for what i want] price range. i went to this one dealer that was trying to sell cars that they hadn't even worked on yet...it was insane. scary, really. sooo it ended up that through the "grapevine" i see this car that is at a dealership that one of my mom's friends mother works at. [haha i know try and figure that one out!] this car [2006 chevy cobalt 2dr silver 25k miles] is everything that i had wanted, except that the price was a bit too high. when we go to test drive the vehicle, i end up liking it alright and actually talked them down in price 500 dollars! haha i also get a great deal from my bank on the interest rate, so that's went pretty well.
the downside is, that my old car still wasn't running so i couldn't trade it in. so there i was, with 2 vehicles. whereas the week before i didn't even have one. my uncle mike ends up fixing my old car for around 250$, so i decided to start trying to sell it myself. i get a call a few days later saying that my uncle knew someone interested in my car and that i should call her. i call and she seems eager to come see the car, and all that jazz. she comes to look at it and says that she's interested, so i tell her to give me a call in a few days so we can take care of everything else that goes along with selling a car. WELL. she's still not called me back and it's been a week. i've left her a message saying that essentially "i'm ready whenever you are" to get this taken care of. as of right now, she's still not called me back. great, just great.
in the middle of all of this, i got to go on VACATION. ahh the idea of it, even now, is still so refreshing. my family and i went to canada for a week, and it was so nice. we stayed in a town called bobcaygeon, ON. it's a small little fishing town that has more lakes than land, i'd say. not being much of a fisherman, or a fan of boats in general, i made the most of the trip. taking my newly purchased bicycle, i would ride up to town and watch the sunset over the water on most of the nights that we were there. a few times it stormed, or looked like it might so i didn't get to make it. while we were there i saw some beautiful sunsets, and one morning my sister and i got up at 5am to try to find a nice location to watch the sunrise. we were driving along this one road and there was a clearing that would be a PERFECT place to watch and take photos. one problem, it's on a private property yacht club. hahahah well because it was really early in the AM we take our chances and park the car and walk to the shore. the area was so nice, and there were actually huge rock steps going down to the edge of the water. beautiful! so we took our photos and got the heck out of there. :] the rest of the week was pretty relaxing. i watched the entire season 1 of THE RICHES on dvd during the rainy bits of the week, i found a new appreciation for american weather forecasters, and played the best SCRABBLE game of my life. canadian people are so nice. i think i'll be making a trip back there for sure. oh, and we also stopped in niagara falls on the way home. i am officially going to write a book called "how to do the falls in 45 minutes" haha because that's what we did. it was very rushed, but i still love going there. it's so intense to see such a huge marvel of nature. i'm definitely going to go back soon to do like a 2 day tour of niagara. and maybe even ride the maid of the mist. i don't know, though....that boat looks soooo scary.
anyways, fast forward a few weeks to now. basically, i can't afford to pay all of my bills. so because of this i ask my employer [aka lame boss] if i can rearrange my schedule so that i can look for a 2nd job. he is honestly the biggest idoit i've ever seen, because he can't even let me work four 10 hour shifts to make the SAME AMOUNT of money that i am making right now. he basically doesn't understand how it is to not have the "wiggle room" to lose even 20$ a week on my paycheck. hello, idiot... that is my car insurance payment for a month. is he going to pay it for me? hahah no, i didn't think so. so i've been super stressed about this because he is now scheduling me 4 days a week. and only 34ish hours. GAH. so the past few days i've been in constant debate in my head about whether or not i should go and really try to get an accounting job. even if i hate it, at least i'll be able to make my bills and [!!!!] maybe a bit more than that. haha what is that even like? i wouldn't know.
so that is where i am at right now. there's a bit less than a week until my 25th birthday. it feels like a gigantic waste, because i do not have anything of substance to show for my 25 years on this planet. yeah, i have a college degree... so what? am i using it? NO. do i even want to? not really. hello, yeah i'm a loser. i have no one in my life that i can truly call a friend. [you know the one you could call at 3AM if you had a terrible thing come up and you just NEEDED someone] yeah, i don't have that. and i don't understand why i don't. it makes me want to cry a little when i am typing this, too. but enough complaining, it doesn't get me anywhere doing that.
i need to start thinking positive and hopefully turn this life around before the next 25 years goes by and i am still just sitting here idle, wasting time.
